第27章金色的眼睛InHerGoldenEyes
戴安娜·尼科尔斯DianeNichols
Mysix-year-olddaughter，Mary，heldontomyhahroughtheaer。ickjusttherightpuppyforhersisterKitty's12thbirthday。Isedeaotigallthepairsofneedybrowaringbackatus。Itwasneedinessforloveandahappyhome-thingsthegirlsandIalsohungeredforsiherandIhaddivorced。
“Hereareourarrivals，”thevolunteersaid。Heledustoacagewherethreepuppiesweresleepihesizeofsmallbearcubswithbeautifulfur。
“Whatkihey?”Iasked，stoopingdowntotakeacloserlook。
“They'reixes，”theboysaid，“I'veneverseensue-lookingdogs。”
&quiedasthepupinthemiddlesuddenlyyawnedaus。Shewasbreathtaking，withoversizedpawsandsilvery-blaarkingsoofall，itwashereyesthatstruckme。Theyweresogentlea。Asgoldenasherfur。Somethishewastheone。
AslongasIlive，I'llKitty'sfawesurprisedherwithherne>
“I'mgoingtonamehere。”Kittybeamed。
Intheingdays，eaplishedexactlyingfor。Ihefeelinghomesickforthelifeos;dlost，theyspenttimeplayingwiththeirnewpuppy。Insteadoffeelingdepressedtheirdaddy，theyrompedandlaughedfavemehopethattheywouldmakethisverydiffisitioer-ifohingwouldhelpmedothesame。
Itrilafternoonthatthingstookahorribleturn。ThegirlswereinthebackyardplayingwithewhileIweore。WhenIgotbaeahedrivetruckcamespeedingdowoutofmycar，keysinhand，andsawthatehadgottenloose。Sheranpastmeinablur。
“e!”Icalledout。“backhere!”Butitwastoolate。Shechasedafterthetruck，caughtuptothefronttires，andedintheairbefwithathudoheroad。
Luckily，thevetwasstillopehtige'sside，williasthevetputherontheexaminingtable。
&legappearstobetheworstofherinjuries，”hesaid，piweehasilverclamp。“Thenerveshavebeendamagedandshedoesn'thaveanyfeeling。I'mafraidos;llhavetoamputate。”
Thedayofe&aperywasthelodayofmylife。Nothingpreparedusforouldseeoopickherup。Iomcage，elaypantingandblinkingsleepyeyes，theesideofherbodyshavedherstomachtoherneck。Awhitebandageedaroundtheshoulderareawhereherlegusedtobe。Aplastictubeedtotheareatohelpthesurgicalsitedraiotallymiserable。TearsslidfrommyeyesasIsawe'stailgiveafaint
Thatnightedoosleepoe。Asshemoanedinagonyandlayoomove，Ikepttryingtopictureherassheusedt，playing，jumpingupoosnuggledowome。Ifeltfrightenedaain，whowshewouldeverbethatsamecarefreepupagain。Inaway，Iuhekindoftraumashewasgh。Onedayyouy，theshattered，leavingyouinaworldofpain。
KittyandItookshiftsforthefirstfewnights。os;dkeepwatfiveherpainpillsandfeedhervanillaiceaspoon。She'ddoze，butusuallyshewastoounfortabletosleep。Everyfewhours，os;dcarryheroutsideaandsoshecouldgotothebathroom。Wewereexhausted，butnothingwasmoreimportantthaneingbacktous-evenifshewouldhesameagain。
OnMondayIhadtotakeyselfwheosarykeptbusywithhergbookswhileItlyhoveredovere。Igedherbandagesandmadesureshetobiteatthem。Istrokedherheadaellirongshewas。Seeinghersomiserableandwatgthebloodoozefretubebrokemyheartoverandain。Imissedhersweeteyeslookihloveinsteadofsomuchsuffering。
“You'reasurvivor，”Iwhisperedinherear。“Weneedyou，soyouhavetogetbetter。Thosearedependingonyou，soplease。。。don'tgiveup。Fightahroughthis。”
AsIsaidthesethihingstruckmedeepihesameliedtome。Ithadbeenahedivorce，thepaiIwaoddie;Ididn'tseemyselfabletostandonmyown。Butos;tthedependioo?Didn'tIhavetofightahroughthis?TearsrandownmycheeksasIlaymyfaste'smuzzle。Itwassosoftahfannedmyskiremindedmehowpreciouslife>
“I'llmakeadealwithyou，girl，”Isaid。“Ifyoufightahroughthis，I'llfightmywaybap;apos;lllearnhowtowalkether。”
Fromthatdayon，thingssteadilyimproved。elookedmorealertandfortable，daringtotakeherfirststeps，whileIstartedglessandsmilingmore。Ahealiotakepladitfeltsood。Oatime，oime，eandIweremakiher。
“Look，mom!She'sdoingit!e'swalkingonherown!”Kittypointedasewaheyardoer。Shemafihefrontlegmissing。Infact，itseemedasifshedidn'tmissitmuchatall。
Maryclappedhappily。“Justlikeheroldself!”
Ithoughtaboutthatamomentandhadtodisagree。“Actually，sweetheart，Ithinke'sgoihaobe。She'llbestrongerbecauseshe'sasurvivornow。Justlikeus。。。betterthanever。”
Inthatinstaoppedame。Thegleamwasbathosegoldehhadaolookforwardto，oepatatime。
我六岁的女儿玛丽，拉着我的手走进了一家动物避难所。我们想挑选一只合适的小狗给她的姐姐凯蒂作十二岁的生日礼物。我仔细地看着每一个笼子，看到那一双双渴求的棕色眼睛盯着我们。那是对爱和快乐家园的期盼。自从我和她们的父亲离婚之后，这些同样也是女儿们和我渴求的东西。
“这些都是新到的。”志愿者说着将我们带到一个笼子前面，那里有三只正在睡觉的小狗，漂亮的皮毛就像小熊一样。
“她们都是什么品种？”我边问边弯下身子近距离地看着她们。
“她们是中国混血狗，”那个志愿者说，“我从来没有见过这样看上去令人敬畏的狗。”
中间的那只小狗突然打着哈欠看着我们，我的心跳加速了。她令人感到惊奇，大大的爪子，脸上长着银黑色的狼斑。最主要的是她的眼睛，真是让我震惊，那么温和、可爱，就像她的皮毛一样，是金黄色的。冥冥之中好像有什么在告诉我，就是她了。
我永远无法忘记——当我们将凯蒂的新伙伴带到她面前时她惊讶的表情。“我要叫她夏安。”凯蒂愉快地说道。
在接下来的日子里，夏安完成了我所期望的一切。孩子们不再对我们失去的生活感到苦恼，相反，她们开始与她们的新狗狗做游戏。她们不再因失去父亲而感到沮丧，反而总是蹦蹦跳跳，开心地笑着。所发生的一切给了我希望，她们会将这个艰难的过渡期过得更好，但愿有什么能够帮助我做同样的事情。