第32章AboutaFriend
ClaudiaDuwe
&aguyofbigwords，aoliveentirelyinhisownworld。Irememberthatduringthedaysheworkedwithusnolyknehereheorwhathewaslookingfor，andafterwardshedisappeared。Nobodyknewwherehehadgohewasdoingorifhehadfriendsorafamilytostaywith。Iguess，wedidn’tevenknowhisname—andevenifwedid，I’vefottenitany>
Thosedaysweremorethanhardforallofus。Thereseemedtobehegreynessofoureverydaylifewhichwastheonlycolourthatsurrouhehugecreteblockswelivedihegreyofthefactorydust，eventhecolourofourclothes，thatohavebeenwhitewasgrey。Itmusthavebeenabrightandshiningwhite。。。andI’texactlyreuchtimeIspenttryingtoimagihekindofwhiteitmighthavebeeewasthecolourofthekindofparadiseIsomugedtoliveinsomeday，greyleftbehindnothihaeofemptinessanddepression。IrememberhowIhatanyotherustbeasymbolforsomething，afeelingorwhatever。Onlygreyseemedtostandforabsolutelynothing。ThiswastheworldIlivedin，andsodidhe。
Havingourjobiorywasstillluxurythough，gthefactthatmostofushadfamiliestofeed。Andnotloartedtoworkthere，Iwouldalwaysfindhimwatthemaexttomine。We’dworkforhoursher，stayihhtsdriftingawaytoadiffereillawareofourhandsdoingthesamemovementsoverandaihatuntilthebellwtoendtheworkfortheday。Iusedtoworkinameicalway，followingthesamerhythmoverandain，andsodidhe。ButeverytimeIwasabouttogiveup，hewouldlifthisheadalesmile，asifhecouldguessmythoughts。Ithinkitwasactuallyhiseyesthatimpressedmemost。Theyweresodarkandstraight，andthoughtheyseemtobehidinganything，I’tgetridoftheimpressionthatsomehowhemustbehidihing。
&sawhim，hehadalwaysbeenarouimehegavemeohosesmiles，hewouldspreadabitofwarmthi，abitoffriendliness。Iguess，attheemusthavebeenhimwhogavemethestrengthtogoobybeingthere。
&omakealongstoryshort，hediedoerhestartedwwithus。Itwasacaradhedidosufferverylong。ImusthavebeenhisoowwaswhatIthoughtwheohisfuheonlypersoherewasanoldlady，maybehismother。Shetoldmethathehadlosthisfamilyjusttheyearbeforeahedidn’tspeakanymore。Hehadn’tsaidasingleword。FirstIdidn’tbelieveher。Ijustthoughtthathewasafairlyquietpersoherewasnothingmuchtosayanyway。ButsuddehatI’trecalleverhavingheardhisvoiceatall。Onlythe!
HegavemesomudIkleabouthim。HehadbeenmyfriendandnowIhadlosthimwithouthaviogiveanythingback。Hehadbeensthathewasabletogivewhateverhadhappened。
&weakinthosedays。Andguilty。ButafterthatIstartedtocareforthepeoplearouhinkIstartedtolive。