第5章一只狗狗的告白ADog’sLastWill（2）
&hehumanbabiesgandIsharedyourext。Iwasfasatedbytheirpiheysmelled，aherthem，too。OnlysheandyouworriedthatImighthurtthem，aofmytimebaherrcrate。Oh，howIwaolovethem，butIbecamea“prisoneroflove”。Astheybegantogrow，Ibecametheirfriend。
&omyfurahemselvesuponwobblylegs，pokedfingersiigatedmyears，andgavemekissesonmynose。Ilaboutthemaouch—becauseyourtouowsoi—andIwouldhavedefehmylifeifneedbe。Iwouldsheirbedsaheirworriesadreams，aedforthesoundofyourthedrive>
Therehadbeehersaskedyouifyouhadadog，thatyouproduefromyourwalletandtoldthemstoriesaboutme。Thesepastfewyears，youjustanswered“yes”ahesubject。Ihadg“y”to“justadog”，aedeveryexpenditureonmybehalf。Now，youhaveaunityiy，andyouandtheywillbemovingtoadoesnotallowpets。You’vemadetherightdeforyour“family”，buttherewasatimewhenIwasyouronlyfamily。
Iwasexcitedaboutthecarrideuntilwearrivedattheasmelledofdogsandcats，offear，ofhopelessness。Youfilledoutthepaperworkandsaid“Iknowyouwillfindagoodhomeforher”。Theyshruggedandgaveyouapaiheyuherealitiesfagamiddle-ageddog，eveh“papers”。Youhadtopryyourson’sfingersloosefrommycollar，asheso，Daddy。Pleasedoakemydog！”AndIworriedforhim，andwhatlessonsyouhadjusttaughthimaboutfriendshipandloyalty，aboutloveandresponsibility，andaboutrespectforalllife。
Yougavemeagood-byepatonthehead，avoidedmyeyes，andpolitelyrefusedtotakemydleashwithyou。Youhadadeadliandoo。Afteryouleft，thetwoniceladiessaidyouprobablykymovemonthsagoaempttofihergoodhome。Theyshooktheirheadsandasked，“Howcouldyou”
Theyareasatteoushereiheirbusyschedulesallow。Theyfeedus，ofcourse，butIlostmyappetitedaysago。Atfirst，assedmypehefront，hopingitwasyou—thatyouhadind—thatthiswasallabaddream…orIhopeditwouldatleastbesomeonewhoightsaveme。WhenIrealizedIpetewiththefroligforattentionofhappypuppies，oblivioustotheirowreatedtoafard>
Iheardherfootstepsassheeattheendoftheday，aheaisleafterhertoaseparateroom。Ablissfullyquietroom。Sheplathetableandrubbedmyears，aoworry。Myheartpouiofwhatwastoe，buttherewasalsoaseheprisoneroflovehadrunoutofdays。Asismynature，Iwasmoreedabouther。Theburdenwhichshebearsweighsheavilyonher，andIknowthat，thesamewayIknewyoureverymood。Shegeouraroundmyfasatearrandownhercheek。IlickedherhandinthesamewayIusedtoanyyearsago。Sheexpertlyslidthehypodermieedleintomyveiingandthecoolliquidgthroughmybody，Ilaydownsleepily，lookedintoherkindeyesandmurmured，“Howcouldyou”
Perhapsbecausesheuoodmydogspeak，shesaid“I’msosorry。”Shehuggedme，andhurriedlyexplaiwasherjobtomakesureIlace，whereIwouldn’tbeignoredorabusedorabandoned，orhavetofendformyself—aplaceofloveandlightsoverydifferentfromthisearthlyplace。
Andwithmylastbity，Itriedtoveytoherofmytailthatmy“Howcouldyou”washer。Itwasyou，MyBelovedMaster，Iwasthinkingof。Iwillthinkofyouandwaitforyouforever。Mayeveryoneinyourlifeuetoshowyousomuchloyalty。