第2章若别离，莫相忘（1）
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我的主人们，
请不要为我悲伤太久，
不管我睡得多沉，
依旧可以听到你们的呼唤，
所有的死神都无法阻止我
朝你们欢快地摇尾巴。
一只狗狗的告白
ADog'sLastWill
佚名Anonymous
y，Iehmyantidmadeyoulaugh。Youcalledmeyourddespiteanumberofchewedshoesandaurderedthrowpillows，Ibecameyourbestfriend。WheneverIwas“bad”，you’dshakeyeratmeandask“Howcouldyou？”—butthe，androllmeoverforabellyrub。
Myhtookalittlelohaed，becauseyouwereterriblybusy，butweworkedonthattogether。Irememberthosenightsofnuzzlingyouinbedaoyourdsecretdreams，alifeotbea。Wewentfwalksandrunsinthepark，carrides，stopsforicecream（Ionlygottheebecause“icecreamisbadfs”，yousaid），andItooklongnapsiingforyoutoeattheendoftheday。
Gradually，youbeganspeworkandonyourdmoretimesearaedforyoupatiently，fortedyhheartbreaksanddisappois，neverchidedyouaboutbaddes，ahgleeatyourhomeings，andwhenyoufellinlove。She，nowyourwife，isnota“dogperson”—stillIweledherintoourhome，triedtoshowheraffedobeyedher。Iybecauseyou>
&hehumanbabiesgandIsharedyourext。Iwasfasatedbytheirpiheysmelled，aherthem，too。OnlysheandyouworriedthatImighthurtthem，aofmytimebaherrcrate。Oh，howIwaolovethem，butIbecamea“prisoneroflove”。Astheybegantogrow，Ibecametheirfrieomyfurahemselvesuponwobblylegs，pokedfingersiigatedmyears，andgavemekissesonmynose。Ilaboutthemaouch—becauseyourtouowsoi—andIwouldhavedefehmylifeifneedbe。Iwouldsheirbedsaheirworriesadreams，aedforthesoundofyourthedrive>
Therehadbeehersaskedyouifyouhadadog，thatyouproduefromyourwalletandtoldthemstoriesaboutme。Thesepastfewyears，youjustanswered“yes”ahesubject。Ihadg“y”to“justadog”，aedeveryexpenditureonmybehalf。Now，youhaveaunityiy，andyouandtheywillbemovingtoadoesnotallowpets。You’vemadetherightdeforyour“family”，buttherewasatimewhenIwasyouronlyfamily。
Iwasexcitedaboutthecarrideuntilwearrivedattheasmelledofdogsandcats，offear，ofhopelessness。Youfilledoutthepaperworkandsaid“Iknowyouwillfindagoodhomeforher”。Theyshruggedandgaveyouapaiheyuherealitiesfagamiddle-ageddog，eveh“papers”。Youhadtopryyourson’sfingersloosefrommycollar，ashescreamed，“No，Daddy。Pleasedoakemydog！”AndIworriedforhim，andwhatlessonsyouhadjusttaughthimaboutfriendshipandloyalty，aboutloveandresponsibility，andaboutrespectforalllife。
Yougavemeagood-byepatonthehead，avoidedmyeyes，andpolitelyrefusedtotakemydleashwithyou。Youhadadeadliandoo。Afteryouleft，thetwoniceladiessaidyouprobablykymovemonthsagoaempttofihergoodhome。Theyshooktheirheadsandasked，“Howcouldyou？”
Theyareasatteoushereiheirbusyschedulesallow。Theyfeedus，ofcourse，butIlostmyappetitedaysago。Atfirst，assedmypehefront，hopingitwasyou—thatyouhadind—thatthiswasallabaddream。。。orIhopeditwouldatleastbesomeonewhoyonewhomightsaveme。WhenIrealizedIpetewiththefroligforattentionofhappypuppies，oblivioustotheirowreatedtoafard>
Iheardherfootstepsassheeattheendoftheday，aheaisleafterhertoaseparateroom。Ablissfullyquietroom。Sheplathetableandrubbedmyears，aoworry。Myheartpouiofwhatwastoe，buttherewasalsoaseheprisoneroflovehadrunoutofdays。Asismynature，Iwasmoreedabouther。Theburdenwhichshebearsweighsheavilyonher，andIknowthat，thesamewayIknewyoureverymood。Shegeouraroundmyfasatearrandownhercheek。IlickedherhandinthesamewayIusedtoanyyearsago。Sheexpertlyslidthehypodermieedleintomyveiingandthecoolliquidgthroughmybody，Ilaydownsleepily，lookedintoherkindeyesandmurmured，“Howcouldyou？”
Perhapsbecausesheuoodmydogspeak，shesaid“I’msosorry”。Shehuggedme，andhurriedlyexplaiwasherjobtomakesureIlace，whereIwouldn’tbeignoredorabusedorabandoned，orhavetofendformyself—aplaceofloveandlightsoverydifferentfromthisearthlyplace。
Andwithmylastbity，Itriedtoveytoherofmytailthatmy“Howcouldyou？”washer。Itwasyou，MyBelovedMaster，Iwasthinkingof。Iwillthinkofyouandwaitforyouforever。Mayeveryoneinyourlifeuetoshowyousomuchloyalty。