第27章你可听见我心动（13）
Withherhandsinmiightly。Suddehinge，athingthatstabbedmybodywithitsquiess。Itwasasifthewordsherfatherhadutteredwerebeiome。Ihadnotrealizedbeforethattherewassuchaloveashehadspokenof。Ihadbelievedthatmenneverlovedwomeniawomanlovedaman，buthereodifference。
&silently，holdiher'shandsftime。Itastmidhelightsinthevalleybeltur；buttimedidnotmatter。
&gsoftlytome，lookingupintomyfadlayinghercheekagainstmyshoulder。Shewasasmueasawstoaman，butIkIeverforcemyselftotakeadvantageofherlove，andtogoawayknowingthatIhadnotlovedherasshelovedme。Ihadnotbelievedanysugwheraveledallthatdistaoholdherinmyarmsforafewhours，aether，perhapsforever。
&wastimefointothehouse，IgotupandputmyarmsarourembledwhenItouchedher，butsheeastightlyasIheldher，andthehammeridroveirokeafterstroke，likeanexpahespearsofherbreasts。
"Richard，kissmebefo，"shesaid。
&heditopenforme。Shepickedupthelampfromthetableandthestairstothefloorabove。
AtmydoorshewaiteduntilIcouldlightherlamp，andthenshehandedmemine。
"Good，"Isaid。
"Goodnight，Richard。"
Iturhewiptokeepitfromsmoking，andtheacrossthehalltowardsherroom。
"I'llcallyouinthemintimeforyoutocatchyourtrain，Richard。"
&quret'tletmeoversleep，becauseitleavesthestatioy。"
"I'llwakeyouiime，Richard，"shesaid。
Thedoorwasclosedafterher，andIturomyroom。IshutthedoorandslowlybegaerIhadblownoutthelampandhadgotienselyawakeIknewIevergotosleep，andIsatupinbedateaftercigarette，blowihroughthesofthewindow。Thehousewasquiet。Oally，IthoughtIheardthesoundsofmuffledmovemeacrossthehall，butIwasain。
IinehowlongatimeIhadsatthereohebed，stiffahinkisuddenlyIfoundmyselfjumpingtomyfeet。Iopehedoorandranacrossthehall。Gret'sdoorwasclosed，butIkwouldnotbelodIturheknobnoiselessly。AsleoflightbrhtheopeningIhadmade。Itwasoopenthedoorwider，becauseIsawGretlyafewstepsaway，almostwithinarm'sreae。Iyeyeslightlyforamoment，thinkingofherasIhadallduringtheday'srideupfromthecoast。
&otheardmeopenthedoor，aknowIwasthere。Herlampwasburningbrightlyoable。
Ihadofindherawake，andIhadthoughtsurelyshewouldbeibesideherbed，herheadbowedoverherarmsandherbodyshakenwithsobs。
&'shairwaslyingoverhershoulders，tiedoverthetopofherheadaleblueribbohitesilk，hemmedwithadelicateladarouhecollaroflacewasthrownopen。
IkifulsheherthehoughIhadalwaysthoughtherlovely。IhadneverseenagirlsobeautifulasGret。
&heardmeatherdoor，ailldidnotknowIwasthere。Shekbesideherbed，herhandschedbef。
WhenIhadfirstopehedoor，Ididnotknoasabouttodo，butnowthatIhadseenherinherroom，kneelinginprayerbesideherbed，uIwaslookinguponherandhearingherwordsandsobs，IwasthatIevercareforanyoneelseasIdidforher。IhadnotknownuiionofafewseewthatIdidloveher。
Iclosedthedoorsoftlyaomyroom。ThereIfoundadplaceditbesidetheaitfortheingofday。AtthewindowIsatandlookeddowomofthevalleywherethewarmriverlay。AsmyeyesgrewmoreaedtothedarkasifIwereingdclosertoit，soclosethatImighthavereachedoutaheithmyhands。
&henight，t，IthoughtIheardsomeomovingsoftlyoverthefloorasonewhowouldgofromindow。OnceIwasIheardsomeohehall，ydoor。
&hesuopofthemountain，Igotupaer，IheardGretleaveherroomandgodownstairs。IknewshewashurryingtopreparebreakfastformebeforeIlefttogetorain。Iwaitedawhile，aerofanhourIheardheringbackupthestairs。Sheklymyimes。
Ijerkedopenthedoorandfacedher。Sherisedatseeihere，whenshehadexpeestillasleep，thatsheotsayanythingforamoment。
"Gret，"Isaid，graspingherhands，"don&#etmeoff—I'mnotgoingbackthism—Idon'tknoasthematterwithmelastnight—IknownowthatIloveyou—"
"Bat，Richard—lastnightyousaid—"
"IdidsaylastnightthatIwasgoihismret，butIdidn'tknoastalkingabout。I'mnotgoingbatilyougowithme。I'lltellyouwhatImeanasSooisover。ButfirstofallIwish。youtogetdowntotheriver。Ihavegottogodhtawayaerwithmyhands。"
司机在吊桥旁边停了车，向我指了一下河对岸的房屋。从火车站到这里，大概两英里，于是我付给他两角五分钱便下车了。司机离开后，我感觉很孤单，此时，只有凄冷的夜晚和星星点点的灯光在山谷中闪烁，而脚下宽阔碧绿的河水则冒着热气在流淌。山峦向四周蜿蜒，恰如夜空中的乌云。只有眺望远方，才可以依稀看到落日暗μ 的余晖。