第28章我爱你，我的好妹妹（1）
ILoveYou，MyTwinSister
佚名Anonymous
Iamahealthytwenty-three-year-oldgirl，bornwithnormalvision，nandwinsister，Dawn，wasnotbornsolucky。Mymotherwasveryyoungwhenshehadgivenbirthtomysisterandme。Becausewewerebornsoearlywewereplacubatorsuhreeweeksold。
&heincubator，thedoioomutomysister。Shewaslaterdiaghcerebralpalsy，anervousdisorderwhichcausesamalfunthesensorymotorskillsandalse。Shehadundergoneseveralunsuccessfulsurgeriesthtletelygoeyeandoableieye。
Alongwithaslowdevelopingbrain，andlegalbliwasalsodetermishewaslegallydeafiear。Shehadtowearbraherlegsaowalkwithcrutches。Shestuckoutlikeasorethumbectedtoallthesetraptions，oftengpeopletostareandpoint。
WhilegrowingupatwimyidentitywasnotmyowbeDoDAWN’STWINSISTER。Welivedinasmallneighborhoodwheremysisterwastheo”child。Wewerebothtlypi，andweneverhadanyfriendsbeysister’s。Ibegantoloathemysister，ahingandanythiotroubletogetbackatherbeiallyretardedandphysicallydisabled。
&likeshewasatthorninmyside。Iwasembarrassedtobeseenwithher，soImadefualongwiththeother。Whewelvemymotherwassodisgustedwithmybehaviortowardsmysister，shefiguredIwasoldenoughtokhatIshouldlovemysisterforwhosheis，forthatisthewayGodcreatedher。
Mymotherthrewmeinmybedroomahickyellowbookwhielikeaphotoalbum。WhatIsawinthatbookgedmylifeandmyattitudeaboutthewaythatIviewedmysisterandotherhandicappedpeoplelikeher。
TherewerenumerousbabypiysisterandIdressedalike，theonlydifferenwashookeduptotubesandneedlesandmaes。Shehadherhandsaapedsothatshewouldnotisethepathereyefrery。Shelookedlikeamummy。Ilookedsmallandpeaceful。
Therewerealsoseveralpicturesofthetwoofusialuhreeyearsold。On，Darappedupinaglorifiedmummyoutfit，withtubesaachedtohereverywhere。Ifyoulookedclosely，youcouldseethepaiedihepicturethatstoodoutthemostshotofthetwoofusinthecribhuggiher。Thebelowread，“Iamsohappytogetavisitfrommytwii。Thedoecry。Shemakesmelaugh。”
Inotionfaallofthepictures：eventhoughshewasidealofpain，andsufferingsomuch，thisbabygirl，whosomewoulddicappedretard，smiledsobigforthecamera。Irealizedthenwhatmymotherwastryingtoshowme。IfeltashamedatthewayItreatedher，andIcriedmyselftosleep。
&evening，mysistercrawledoverandwokemeupfordinner。Ikissedherandhuggedherandprofuselyapologizedformybehavior。Shelookedatmewithuyinhereyes。Ikknoastalkingabout。ButIknew，Iknew。
Fromthatmomenton，Iwasmysister’sproteoonewasgoingtohurtherforanyreason。Iftheintheneighborhooddidnotlaywithusbeysister，sobeit。Wewouldplaywitheachother。Wedidhem。Wewereinseparable。