第50章聆听孩子（1）
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MydaybeganonadecidedlysournotewhenIsawmysix-year-withalimbofmyazaleabush。BythetimeIgotoutside，he’dbrokenit。“Itakethistoschooltoday？”heasked。Withawavetomyhahimoff。Iturnedmybacksohewouldearsgatheringinmyeyes。Ilovedthatazaleabush。Itouchedthebrokenlimbasiftosaysilently，“I’msorry。”
IwishedIcouldhavesaidthattomyhusbaI’dbeenangry。Thewashingmaehadleakedonmybrand-newlinoleum。Ifhe’djusttakeofixitthenightbeforewhenIaskedhiminsteadofplayihJonathan。rioritiesanyway？Iwondered。IwasstillmoppingupthemesswhenJonathahekit。“What’sforbreakfast，Mom？”Iopeyrefrigerator。“Notcereal，”Isaid，watgthesidesoldhismouthdrop。“Howabouttoastandjelly？”Ismearedthetoastwithjellyainfrontofhim。WhywasIsoangry？Itossedmyhusbahesudsy>
Itwasdayslikethisthatmademewanttoquit。Ijustwaodriveuptothemountains，hideinad。SomehowImaolugthewetclothestothelaundromat。Ispentmostofthedaywashinganddryihinkinghoearedfrommylife。Stariionthewalls，Ifeltaswrung-outastheclothesleftinthewashers。AsIfinishedhangiofmyhusband’sshirts，Ilookedattheclock。2：30。Iwaslate。Jonathan’sclassletoutat2：15。Idumpedthethebadhurriedlydrovetotheschool。IwasoutofbreathbythetimeIkheteacher’sdoorahroughtheglass。Withonefiio。ShesaidsomethingtoJonathanandhandedhimandtwootherdasheetofpaper。
Whatnow？Ithought，assherustledthroughthedoorandtookmeaside。“IwanttotalktoyouaboutJonathan，”shesaid。Ipreparedmyselffortheworst。Nothingrisedme。“DidyouknowJhtflowerstoschooltoday？”sheasked。
Ihinkingaboutmyfavoritebushandtryiinmyeyes。Iglamysonbusilygapicture。Hiswavyhailwastoolongabehhisbrow。Hebrusheditawaywiththebackofhishawithblueasheadmiredhishandiwork。
&ellyouaboutyesterday，”theteasisted。“Seethatlittlegirl？”
Iwatchedthebright-eyedchildlaughandpointtoacolorfulpicturetapedtothewall。Inodded。
&erdayshewasalmosthysterical。Hermotherandfatherareghanastydivoreshedidn’twanttolive，shewishedshecoulddie。Iwatchedthatlittlegirlburyherfaherhandsandsayloudenoughfortheclasstohear，‘Nobodylovesme。’IdidallIcouldtosolher，butitoomakemattersworse。”
“IthoughtyouwaalktomeaboutJonathan。”Isaid。
“Ido，”shesaid，tougthesleeveofmyblouse。“Todayyoursoraightovertothatchild。Iwatchedhimhandhersomeprettypinkfloer，‘Iloveyou。’”