第20章心灵独白（1）
AProposaltoMyself
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1。ign'n？：]v。不顾，不理会；忽视
2。exude[ig'zju：d]v。使渗出；发散（气味等）
3。mysterious[mis'ti？ri？s]adj。神秘的；不可思议的
4。surgeon['s？：d？？n]n。外科医生
5。psyche['saiki]n。灵魂；精神
6。ace[？'kweint？ns]n。相识的人，熟人
7。fused[k？n'fju：zd]adj。困惑的，惶惑的
IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIkowhateninmylife。IamwritingthiswithmymiIwillalifepassmeby。IamdetermiIwillseetheworldithatmaybepossibleforme。IamsurethatIwillbeethiheecarriesmylifeigivesmebadnews。
Iwillhosewhoinsistthatauydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays。IwilligellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream。IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImayedtocollege，Ihaveseehernlightsthemselvesinfrontofme。IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlantidPacifis。IhavebeentoanIrishpub，achedthesuheRomanForum。IhaveclimbedtheSsaarsiilIcouldseenomore。
Ihaveexperieisliketolive，andIwilltellmyselfthatevenifthatenvelopeissmallaiotheyhaverejectedwillandgoontoseemoremountainsandswimiersandkeepongthestars，beewhereitiswrittenthatImustuetolivemylifetheto。
&hatwillreachmymailboxtomorraIamreadytobearwithdself-respect。Iwillnotlesstheybetearsgood-byetomychildhoodandwelinginaismysteriousandunkwillteachmetogrowaandwhythihewaytheyare。Owillfilteroutallmyregretsamyself-worthmultiply。
Iwillbestronginmybattlealethingsbringmedown。Iwilltellmyselfthatitisokaytobescatterbrainedonawhileandthatsometimesthekindnessyoushowwillbalayourfaults。IwillknowthatIamagoodpersonadoesn’tnecessarilymeanthatyouareatocollege。IknowwhoIamandtherearebrainsurgeonswhowouldbegedshmymulti-facetedpsyche。
IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIkowhateninmylife。IamwritingthiswithmymiIwillalifepassmeby。IamdetermiIwillseetheworldithatmaybepossibleforme。IamsurethatIwillbeethiheecarriesmylifeigivesmebadnews。
Iwillhosewhoinsistthatauydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays。IwilligellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream。IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImayedtocollege，Ihaveseehernlightsthemselvesinfrontofme。IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlantidPacifis。IhavebeentoanIrishpub，achedthesuheRomanForum。IhaveclimbedtheSsaarsiilIcouldseenomore。