第11章长大成人WheHome（2）
&—afteralongperiodofsileweenus—IaskedwhatImighthavedoneorsaidtrywithme。Shesighedandsaid，“Mom，youhavehing。It’sfiisfidistant。
&hepastwehadalwaysfouoeAlliewasatoddler，Iwouldgototheday-terafterwork。I’dfiandshewouldnurse—oureyeslockedtogether，regwitheachother。
Inmiddlesothermotherswerealreadylameraheyfeltwiththeiradolestdaughters，Ihituponasolution:rescueraids。Iwouldshowupoallyatsheroutofdtakehersomewhere—outtolunovies，walkomaysoundirrespokeptusothermothersanddaughterswerefl。Wetalkedaboings—outifromfamilyandfriends。
&artedhighschool，I’dgetupwithherinthemtomakeherasandwidwe’dsilentlydrinkacupofteatogetherbeforethe6:40buscame。
Aesduringherseioff，butbeforesheweontheedgeofherbed，aellmeaboutproblems:ateacherwhradebecauseshewastooshytotalkinclass，aboywhoteasedher，afriendwhohadstartedsmoking。Hervoiingoutofthedarkness，wasyouioning。
AfewdayslaterI’dhearheronthephsomeofthethingsIhadsaid，thingsshehadadoptedforherown。
Butwokindss。Iwaicizedversiotolundleanacrossthetableandsayhoillmisseachother。Iwahroughtears，bittersweetmomentsofremiheelastbitsofwisdom。
Butasshepreparestodepart，Allie’sfeelingshaveground。Wheouchherarm，shepullsaway。Sheturnsdowatioend。Sheliesonherbed，readingEmilyDitilIsaylhavealwayslovedEmilyDidthehebook。
&hetighteryourbondwithyourchild，thegreaterherobreakaway，toestablishherowyihemoreitwillhurt，theysay。Afriethroughadifficulttimewithherdaughterbutnowhasbeeclain，tellsme，“Yhterwillbebacktoyou，”
“Idon’tknow，”Isay。IsometimesfeelsoangrythatIwanttogooverandshakeAllie。Iwanttosay，“Talktrounded!”Ifeelmyselfwantingtosaythatmosthorribleofallmotherphrases:“ThihingI’vedoneforyou。”
Lateo，asI’mgettingreadyforbed，sheestothebathroomdoorandwatchesmebrushmyteeth。Foramoment，IthinkImustbebrushihinawayshedoesn’tapproveof。Butthenshesays，“Iwanttoreadyousomething。”It’sapamphletfre。“Thesearetipsforparents。”
Iwatchherfaceasshereadstheadvicealoud:“‘Don’taskyourchildifsheishomesick，’itsays。‘Shemightfeelbadthefirstfewweeks，butdoworryyou。Thisisanaturaltimeoftransitioersa。Sendapackageofgoodies。。。’”
Hervoicebreaks，andsheeandburiesherheadinmyshoulder。Istrhtly，afraidshe’llboltifIsayaword。Westaherfmoments，swayiing。
Iknowitwillbehardagain。It’slikelytherewillbeafightaboutsomething。ButIamgratefultobestandimidnight，bothofustiredandsad，toothpastesmearedonmy，holdingtightto—whilealsolettinggoof—mydaughterwhtosaygood-bye。